My Name Is.

Hi, my name is Hannah.

Pleased to meet you.

I am a lot of things. I am an artist, an athlete, a friend. I would describe myself as a very “type-B perfectionist”. I compete with myself, not with others.

I would say that I am both impressively impulsive yet calculated. I historically have made many jumps in my life with little to no consideration of the consequences.

Any and all life decisions I have made up to this point—I have made them quickly and often without rumination.

I have definitely been burned by my own rushed decisions. But my personal and professional successes have often stemmed from my desire to act without pause.

Before my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I was doing really well.

I had built myself my own empire of sorts. I am not driven by the desire to be rich or famous. That is not how I measure my successes.

I do not have any desire to have frivolous items in my life—a trait I picked up from my mom. I drive a beat-up 2006 Honda and I have no desire to own a car with new technology.

My husband and I bought a very modest house three years ago. We do not plan on moving from our “starter home” for something bigger and more impressive.

I do not shop, and when I do, I do not purchase anything new.

But before all this, I romanticized and loved the hell out of every aspect of my life. I was satisfied with my life, and I was very happy.

I had overcome crushing obstacles and demons from my past. I was proud of how I harnessed my impulsivity and other negative traits and turned them into strengths.

I have quickly realized that this portion on my life is much more challenging and taxing than anything else I had dealt with.

I am uncomfortably direct and I will speak my mind. I am indeed a lot of things and I do know my personality is somewhat polarizing.

At the core I am defiant, disobedient, and independent.

But I will fight fiercely for my loved ones. I will do the right thing, even if it is unpopular. I will and have always defended and advocated for those who have quieter voices.

In this tough time, I need to remember all of these things about myself. I will need these traits later.

I have to remind myself, that I am not one to roll over in times of uncertainty and fear. I make things work in tough times.